omg. this blog is so dead. haha. i was reading like the end of 2008's posts. at that time, mtyp still bothered to attempt to liven up the blog. now she doesnt even try anymore :) i feel so bad when i see all the posts by me. haha. i guess thats the same with everything. over time the passion burns out. and maybe over time u get sick of trying.
oo i went to my friend's house and i saw her xmas tree with presents overflowing below it. i come back and look at my tree its almost pathetic. come to think bout it, i wanna know what xmas shopping means. never done that before. haha never too late to try something right.
2009 - if theres one word to sum up the entire year it would be 'change'. so many things changed this year. but most of all, i think i changed and i hate that fact. i liked my form 3-4 self the best. i changed quite a lot this year. ive become more indifferent i think. i don put in effort anymore. and to a certain extent, i sort of do not care. that 'dont care' attitude peeves me and yet im becoming one of them :( in my attempt to become less rigid, ive become ignorant. they say ignorance is bliss but is that true? in the end u find yourself nonchalant bout everything, lacking passion and hence happiness.
talk bout effort. if everyone puts in an effort, the world would be a better place right. this year, i consciously became one of those who do NOT put in an effort. because after a while u feel that if you are putting in effort and there are ppl who are not, then why bother? and thats precisely what i hate about my change. i shouldnt be bothered by others right. who cares if others free load of you, put in effort anyway. haha.
like love hurts, but we should still love anyway right.
i used to think that being one of those ignorant people might make me happier. but then its so not me. sigh.
hmm on another note, i hate suspense. just give me my uk visa already. stop torturing me :( i not only want it, scarily, i think i need it.
i miss my friends :( we all change its inevitable i guess. but is there something that stayed constant?
aiya just miss everyone la. miss high school times. miss msn times. when xmas comes u just think about ppl who matter to u. hence i miss the crew.
growing up wayy too fast. i saw that post 2 years ago - end of 2007. that pic in front of the xmas tree. awww. good times good times indeed :)
the future is exciting i guess. MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL. lots of love from sjane :)
i will change into a better person, i promise. this year, i'll make sure if theres any change, it will be positive. dont wanna sit here on 25 dec 2010 regretting about negative change. :) if i fail, well, at least i tried :)
have yourself a merry lil xmas ;)
Saturday, December 26, 2009
stars shine bright, does your life?
if the answer is not a yes, is it necessarily a no?
if you disagree with someone, are they wrong or does their opinion simply not suit you?
if all good things come to an end, do bad things too?
if there is nothing that is perfect, then why does anyone practice?
are quarrels signs of insufficient understanding, or understanding that is to come?
if questions are unanswerable, then why even bother asking?
^_^
if the answer is not a yes, is it necessarily a no?
if you disagree with someone, are they wrong or does their opinion simply not suit you?
if all good things come to an end, do bad things too?
if there is nothing that is perfect, then why does anyone practice?
are quarrels signs of insufficient understanding, or understanding that is to come?
if questions are unanswerable, then why even bother asking?
^_^
Sunday, November 15, 2009
u cant play on broken strings
damn i wish i was more diligent. wish i realised that its not over till its over. wish i did not give up. sigh.
so what did i learn today?
that the 10 most important mind stimuli are:
1. the desire for sex expression
2. love
3. burning desire for fame, power or money
4. music
5. friendship
6. harmony of 2 or more people
7. mutual suffering
8. auto-suggestion
9. fear
10. narcotics and alcohol
me : ohhhh. no wonder when im so tired of studying, i put on music for a while and it helps so much. then i can concentrate so much better after that.
"no thats just stupid. does that mean putting on porn when i study helps??"
so what else did i learn?
that if a man wants to be rich and successful, he should marry a wife he really loves. "When inspired by his first wife Josephine, Naopoleon Banoparte was irresistable and invincible. When his 'better judgment' or 'better reasoning' prompted him to put Josephine aside, he began to decline."
so men who think falling in love is a distraction are wrong. so sometimes, all the reasoning and judgment in the world is useless.
anyway how does all that help me with distinguishing meningitis and stroke tomorrow??
sigh.
and i watched 2 weeks notice last night. there's just something about hugh grant. he has that sort of character and charm in all the movies ive seen him in - notting hill, love actually, music and lyrics, 2 weeks notice - and u start to wonder whether maybe he's like that in real life. he has that same sort of charm in all the movies!
when u think bout actors with distinct character, names like hugh grant, richard gere and jude law come to mind. jude law just has 2000 more plusses just cause hes so ridiculously good looking. but having charms like hugh grant and richard gere aint that bad either.
"right until u came along, i was perfectly fine with making my own decisions. i cant anymore. i have become obsessed with what u think."
"she has become the voice in my head and i cant seem drown her out. and i dont want to."
n i love sandra bullock's character in that movie. not typically girl-ish. so strong.
so what did i learn today?
that the 10 most important mind stimuli are:
1. the desire for sex expression
2. love
3. burning desire for fame, power or money
4. music
5. friendship
6. harmony of 2 or more people
7. mutual suffering
8. auto-suggestion
9. fear
10. narcotics and alcohol
me : ohhhh. no wonder when im so tired of studying, i put on music for a while and it helps so much. then i can concentrate so much better after that.
"no thats just stupid. does that mean putting on porn when i study helps??"
so what else did i learn?
that if a man wants to be rich and successful, he should marry a wife he really loves. "When inspired by his first wife Josephine, Naopoleon Banoparte was irresistable and invincible. When his 'better judgment' or 'better reasoning' prompted him to put Josephine aside, he began to decline."
so men who think falling in love is a distraction are wrong. so sometimes, all the reasoning and judgment in the world is useless.
anyway how does all that help me with distinguishing meningitis and stroke tomorrow??
sigh.
and i watched 2 weeks notice last night. there's just something about hugh grant. he has that sort of character and charm in all the movies ive seen him in - notting hill, love actually, music and lyrics, 2 weeks notice - and u start to wonder whether maybe he's like that in real life. he has that same sort of charm in all the movies!
when u think bout actors with distinct character, names like hugh grant, richard gere and jude law come to mind. jude law just has 2000 more plusses just cause hes so ridiculously good looking. but having charms like hugh grant and richard gere aint that bad either.
"right until u came along, i was perfectly fine with making my own decisions. i cant anymore. i have become obsessed with what u think."
"she has become the voice in my head and i cant seem drown her out. and i dont want to."
n i love sandra bullock's character in that movie. not typically girl-ish. so strong.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
lock the doors, leave the world outside.
i have finally parted with my old phone. nov 2004-nov 2009. i loved that phone. it served me a good 5 years. as useless as it was =S with it, i parted with good and bad memories as well. time for a change anyway.
last night, we were all eating dessert, and then the topic of sweetness came up. 4 girls and 1 guy in the room. we told him we think ure a nice guy, but ure not sweet.
"how does nice not equal to sweet???" he said.
boys.
and then he was like, i cook for everyone, i always help u guys and you- he pointed at me - im offering to borrow u my fan tonight! how is that NOT SWEET?
and he demanded examples of what 'sweet' guys do. so the 4 of us thought and thought and thought. couldnt come up with an example. HAHA. we talk so much in the end cant even give example. anyway eventually we decided that its just surprises that make a guy sweet.
anyway finally he was left and before he left he was like "eh sj i'll leave the fan outside your room." then he left.
right after the door shut, sam murmured quietly "or he could have just not offered to borrow u his fan, but instead just leave it outside your room so that u see it when u get back. that would have been sweet. gee. BOYS."
its funny how u come up with the perfect example when its not important anymore.
haih. what is it about boys' and girls' brains. science seems to point towards estrogen actions on the brain. stooopid. how can science explain how ppl think. how males and females think.
geez.
last night, we were all eating dessert, and then the topic of sweetness came up. 4 girls and 1 guy in the room. we told him we think ure a nice guy, but ure not sweet.
"how does nice not equal to sweet???" he said.
boys.
and then he was like, i cook for everyone, i always help u guys and you- he pointed at me - im offering to borrow u my fan tonight! how is that NOT SWEET?
and he demanded examples of what 'sweet' guys do. so the 4 of us thought and thought and thought. couldnt come up with an example. HAHA. we talk so much in the end cant even give example. anyway eventually we decided that its just surprises that make a guy sweet.
anyway finally he was left and before he left he was like "eh sj i'll leave the fan outside your room." then he left.
right after the door shut, sam murmured quietly "or he could have just not offered to borrow u his fan, but instead just leave it outside your room so that u see it when u get back. that would have been sweet. gee. BOYS."
its funny how u come up with the perfect example when its not important anymore.
haih. what is it about boys' and girls' brains. science seems to point towards estrogen actions on the brain. stooopid. how can science explain how ppl think. how males and females think.
geez.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
"The only good thing Mr Atkinson did was book Drogba for getting kicked in the chest by Jonny Evans. Essentially Drogba was booked just for being Drogba."
hahaha funnyass.
In yesterday's paper,
Pheochromocytoma is:
a).....
b) the disease that killed abraham lincoln
c)......
d)......
e).....
humour in exam. hahaa. so many ppl giggled in the hall.
some people chose b) as their answer though. on facebook - "eh not funny some ppl chose b as their answer. not fair to ppl who dono US history."
hahaha funnyass.
In yesterday's paper,
Pheochromocytoma is:
a).....
b) the disease that killed abraham lincoln
c)......
d)......
e).....
humour in exam. hahaa. so many ppl giggled in the hall.
some people chose b) as their answer though. on facebook - "eh not funny some ppl chose b as their answer. not fair to ppl who dono US history."
Sunday, November 08, 2009
love taught me to lie
ridiculous weather. sigh sigh. bring back the cold. i cant study!
i was dying in my room, longing for air-con.
decided to head out to lygon.
ended up in borders.
spent 2 hours in there with a cup of gloria jeans and a ton of magazines. and finally some air conditioning.
i enjoyed it actually. quite a lot. without a worry in the world. not caring how many minutes ticked by.
but seriously no time for this kinda weather wei. not when exams are looming just over the horizon.
oh well.
where's the stressssss?
i was dying in my room, longing for air-con.
decided to head out to lygon.
ended up in borders.
spent 2 hours in there with a cup of gloria jeans and a ton of magazines. and finally some air conditioning.
i enjoyed it actually. quite a lot. without a worry in the world. not caring how many minutes ticked by.
but seriously no time for this kinda weather wei. not when exams are looming just over the horizon.
oh well.
where's the stressssss?
Sunday, October 25, 2009
i can't sing a love song like the way it's meant to be
waiting for the match to start. i cant believe im staying up for it. it'd better be a good one. cheh. ughhhhh. i suck. i shop too much. really too much. dont like how i shop so much. i don't even feel like studying. it's like ive given up without even trying. sigh. i still wanna do well though. :(
here's to another time-wasting attempt. sigh. i need that drive. yes i do. before its too late
oh well. here goes. these are pics from the treasure hunt. haha siaw, this is proof that we went to all the places. although we took our time talking, chatting, strolling and taking loads of photos :)
i love u girls :)
ah, posers. not us, but them. :P
haih. my friend came to visit me on mon after my bday. asked me how the bday weekend was. i told him how celebrations started from fri night all the way till sun night. told him bout the treasure hunt, told him about uni friends' mega plan, told him how i felt, told him that heck i even enjoyed the truth or dare on fri night. then, after it all, he said "you have the best friends i have ever heard."
and yes, i do. the sincerest thank you. i will miss u guys as we all grow up. sigh.
haih. still so long to the match. it had better be worth it. i will be a grumpy person tomoro if it turns out to be a crap match.
ok ciaos. all the best to all of u all over the world, whatever ure doing, i hope ure smiling :)
here's to another time-wasting attempt. sigh. i need that drive. yes i do. before its too late
oh well. here goes. these are pics from the treasure hunt. haha siaw, this is proof that we went to all the places. although we took our time talking, chatting, strolling and taking loads of photos :)
i love u girls :)
ah, posers. not us, but them. :P
haih. my friend came to visit me on mon after my bday. asked me how the bday weekend was. i told him how celebrations started from fri night all the way till sun night. told him bout the treasure hunt, told him about uni friends' mega plan, told him how i felt, told him that heck i even enjoyed the truth or dare on fri night. then, after it all, he said "you have the best friends i have ever heard."
and yes, i do. the sincerest thank you. i will miss u guys as we all grow up. sigh.
haih. still so long to the match. it had better be worth it. i will be a grumpy person tomoro if it turns out to be a crap match.
ok ciaos. all the best to all of u all over the world, whatever ure doing, i hope ure smiling :)
Monday, October 19, 2009
ovarian cystic teratoma
guess what i learnt in school today? that u can have TEETH in your ovaries. freaked me out so bad. reminded me of that horrendous movie at tian's place. i know its not the same thing. but if u can have teeth growing in your ovaries, im not surprised if u get teeth in your vagina.
been learning all sorts of weird things.
like:
u can look like a female all the while and realise ure a male. like u have breasts and normal external female genitals but then u get worried when u havent started menstruating when ure like 16. u go see the doctor, he does a few tests and the nxt moment u realize ure XY. ure a male. he recommends surgery and he pulls out a testis from u. how shocking is that. n these females are usually super hot - because they have less testosterone activity hence less acne, facial hair, bigger breasts etc etc - way more attractive. hahaha be careful when u see this super hot girl and wanna date her :P
or - u can look totally like a male but actually be a female. ie u have complete male externals - penis and scrotum, but u don have testes - instead u have ovaries and a uterus. ure a female, its just that u are masculinised.
these conditions are just sooo freaking freaky. freakiest of all is the teeth thingy. totally freaked me when i read it. i was like WTH.
been learning all sorts of weird things.
like:
u can look like a female all the while and realise ure a male. like u have breasts and normal external female genitals but then u get worried when u havent started menstruating when ure like 16. u go see the doctor, he does a few tests and the nxt moment u realize ure XY. ure a male. he recommends surgery and he pulls out a testis from u. how shocking is that. n these females are usually super hot - because they have less testosterone activity hence less acne, facial hair, bigger breasts etc etc - way more attractive. hahaha be careful when u see this super hot girl and wanna date her :P
or - u can look totally like a male but actually be a female. ie u have complete male externals - penis and scrotum, but u don have testes - instead u have ovaries and a uterus. ure a female, its just that u are masculinised.
these conditions are just sooo freaking freaky. freakiest of all is the teeth thingy. totally freaked me when i read it. i was like WTH.
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